Buzz Heap

I’m all coffee no belly-full

So my jitters are plentiful 

These brain farts are seminal

And I’ll admit I’m a sheep

Deep in the retreat

Of buzz’s heap

Every cell beeped 

So further into me I sent them all 

I creep around with so many thoughts

I go quiet

I’m concrete under the marching feet

Of a riot 

And it’s all my fault

I can’t deny it

My poetry has lost all point of view

It’s tired

I just ramble on about my egg’s scramble

When I need to fry it

But open that fridge door

And you’ll see my needs are on a diet

I don’t want us to kiss even through spit on the rim

So I sky it

Sometimes I jingle my own keys

And jump at the jangle 

It’s like my anxieties

Start to strangle my scrambled

Handle on realities

Then I’m mangled

One little wobble and I’m blown off

Got all these stumbles that I shown off

Likkle pick me ups that I moan of

But really it’s it all that made me grown up

I own up to the worst

But I shy from my stardom

Like all my accomplishments

Deserve pardon

Hard on the qualities that got lard on

So I reduce em till they’re skinny

Starve strong the silly

Little bits that need fattening 

Flattening beehives 

For scattering ringlets

Before the happenings 

Of my clattering, earth shattering

Smattering of self gets boomed

God, don’t I know how to clear a room

Watch me doom myself to godly disproportion 

Shit, don’t you love it when getting to love me

Feels like extortion

I’m forced on like a horse drawn chugger

I’ll only say it once

But now’s the time

To run for cover 

To run for cover

So I’m full of shit too

But I suppose you already knew that

I flew that blue back fly

Like it was a golden pony

Every plush clapped

Cos when I go mad I’m lonely

If only I let you hold me

But I’m Alice in the shrinking room

Thinking the walls are closing in

When it’s actually just my body

In full bloom 

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By Lyric Deep.