You said it was the same pain as loss
And you’ve lost a lot
You’ve proved to be all those things
You said you was not
In weak moments, though
I misdiagnosed you as gone
So I know that torture like a twin
And recently I stopped trying
To destroy everything
I ain’t remedied by some gift
That you bring
But by language of your love
That I’m finally fluent in
I pictured my life
With her and with him
It was fruitless, useless
Pale, peak and thin
Blew the dust off
With my poison peppered lips
Saw your technicolour, your ice that’s like summer
Your efforts to replace what I missed
And I grabbed that skinhead
In my tattooed, bloodless fist
You don’t read my poetry
Because you don’t want my insult
Well how’s this for a table turned?
Peace isn’t a gift given
It’s something you need to learn
So if you keep peering
For those brighter fields
You’ll stay walking as blisters burn
Compliments aren’t attacks
Waiting to be discerned
Love also speaks in words that are stern
She can roar her head
She can feel unfed
She can twist and kiss and gurn
Then she can sober
She can feel sun on her cheeks
As flower’s dew
She can stop accusing what is not
And finish turning me on you
So maybe new friends are needed
People she ain’t cancered with her gossip
But I’m confessing in an empty booth
I wish truth never stopped it
I beg, and I peal
What was said, I reveal
I barter, I deal
Controlling, I kneel
Give me something to paw
Something to argue and hold
Stop being so embarrassed
When I flourish bold
She’s whispering to me again
I won’t repeat what I’ve been told
Or maybe I will,
It depends how I feel
And slander’s best served
Before it goes cold
Don’t shout back, though
It was darkness that brung
Don’t shout back
At the height of your lungs
Now you’re gone
I’ve lost all want to run
I answer the cries, tend to the barking
Clean the sides, mop the marking
Waste enough hours
Until I can crawl back into bed
Same pain as loss
Was it, you said?
by Lyric Deep.
Lyric Deep™ 