When she was treating me terribly
I justified it
Because she loved me
Love is ruination
It is promising not to leave
Before you pack your bags
And don’t bring your keys
It is saying I’m the bad vibes
When I’ve been dark all week but
Should’ve turn light when she arrived
It is saying I’m not good enough
Because those others
Are better so deserve more love
It is telling her crowd
That I’m fucked in the head
When my head ain’t around
It is when she don’t hold my hand
After months of fingers laced
Because the things I grasp she can’t stand
It is the flame from the gaslight
Not from the passion or desire
The strongest fire is when it ain’t right
It is being left for the wolves
On the other end with no speaker
Screaming into voids and empty pools
It is being told I am weak
For the things that bring me comfort
In a body where ease is all it needs
It is revisiting the pyres of my pain
When she knows the edge it gives my smooth
But can’t stop kicking me down memory’s lanes
That’s Love.
But it’s not, is it?
It is when she don’t need to do it
But she does and wants to
Because she sees that we’ve been through it
It is when I am naive and trying
I’m unlearnt and young, then
She gives her wings for my high flying
It is when I feel my types of ways
And I can turn to her and say
Anything, it’s validated, not scathed
It is when I don’t like the same
But she gets me my opposite
And we feast together without shame
It is when I miss her but keep mute
Then she rings first because
She knows the patterns of my roots
It is when I feel so at ease, so safe
I sleep and dream my life
Because I am in her space
It is being heard when I tell my truth
Instead of her telling me, she
Gives my identity muscle and thoughts proof
It is her passing to me before the left
Making sure I’m sorted
Without second thought or breath
It is when I’m turning leaf anew
And she buys me my seeds
Because she believes in everything I do
Love is not ruination
Love is rebirth
Love is meant to be overflowing
Unconditional
And I am dying everyday
To love again
By Lyric Deep & FRANK.
(This poem was a collaboration between a dear friend and I – a beautiful process with a beautiful outcome)
Lyric Deep™ 